He took a pretty mean jab at the guy that I was seeing. And after having broken his heart, and choosing to be alone, rather than to just do the easy thing, I felt pretty upset.

One of our mutual friends had a romantic evening with his ex from Windsor, the same that he cheated on me with. And he was too angry last night to return my calls.

I shouldn't take that. I shouldn't have to compete for his heart. I should have it, because he has mine and we could be great. But, this incident has worn down my resolve.

I sometimes think of that book of which the name I can't remember. A man loves a woman in silence for over 60 years. And I think that it is the most admirable thing one can do is listen to your heart and fight for the love that you believe in. But I'm not so sure it's right if I'm not able to be the love of his life like he is mine.